How God works things out...

    I travelled to Providence, RI last weekend for work. We were doing demos at the Home Show. I got to stay at the Providence Biltmore Hotel, which is absolutely beautiful. The old glass elevator is a historical landmark, so they had rebuilt the hotel around it. I have pictures but can't get them off my phone at the moment. I made decent money too, so that's a plus.

    Sometimes God has to hit me over the head with a brick to get me to see something. In my previous post, I asked if all this being away from home and being tired was worth it. But after talking to someone and thinking more, how could I have not seen what a huge blessing has fallen into my lap? All because of a divorce. If my husband had not left, I would not have taken this job.  I am gaining confidence, making good money, traveling, and meeting new people all the time. The fair season is coming up, and my boss has asked me specifically to travel with her to places like Minnesota. I've always wanted to see the rest of my country, but it was nothing but a pipe dream at one point. Now, it is a reality.

    I believe that God is restoring to me 'what the years of the locusts have eaten'. I never thought anything good would come out of my divorce. I must not be so quick to put God in a box.

Welcome to my blog...

Thank you for taking the time to read my blog. The purpose in starting this blog is to give me an outlet for what I am going through at this point in my life. I hope that others can share their experiences, strength ad hope if they have gone through this journey, which I will share more about later. I will also be writing about other things that take up space in my mind. Just a side note; I will be using my nickname and initials to protect other’s privacy.
I am a 38 yr old mother of a 19 yr old son. I am a devout christian. I am also going through a divorce, not of my choosing. My husband of 16 yrs left me back in August of 2009, much to my shock and amazement. I knew that things were not great between us. We had communication issues and financial issues. But never did I think he would come home from work one day and tell me he was leaving, especially after he had told me a few weeks earlier that he told someone we were doing okay.
Shortly after he left I discovered he had started drinking again and smoking marijuana behind my back. I was not surprised, as a wife we have that intuition that something just isn’t right, but we can’t quite put our finger on it. Friends of ours had know this, but didn’t tell me because, as they say, “they didn’t know how”. As you can imagine, I felt humiliated. I felt  stupid because I was his wife, I should have known.
About a month after he left, I was sitting at my computer, having a coffee and puttering around on the net. I see a vehicle pull up and someone in the passenger side lean over for a few seconds, and then get out. That man was my husband. I put two and two together and when he got to the door, I asked him who it was. He told me and I asked if he was seeing her. He said yes. You cannot begin to imagine the grief, humiliation and anger that came over me. How could he have his mistress drop him off in front of the house we shared for years?
There is much more to the story. I want to share this because in many churches today, divorce is seen as the ultimate sin. I do not believe it is, and I will write about that later. I welcome your comments as I walk through this journey with God by my side. However, to make it perfectly clear, I will not accept comments about divorce is sin, comments about divorce and remarriage being adultery, how God hates divorce.  But that is also a discussion for another time. This place is for encouragement and support, I intent to keep it that way.